I wanna write something, but yet, I don't know how i should put it.

Well...

I've been very dry this week.

It's like after the deliverance thing, I'm supposed to spend more time with God.
But I'm NOT!!!!!

I think this is just another way that the Devil is trying to bring the spirit that's driven back to me again, or is it another test God is giving to me?

I'm being stressed out by the many projects and homework that when it comes to doing Qt, I'm already tired out. Then, I will have this mentality that I'm tired and will do it tmr.

I also felt in my heart that I don't have the love for ppl anymore.. And that I just want to step down as a helper, but, I think that this is a very nonsensical thought.

And when doing Qt, my mum sometimes will pop in and check on me. And this always brings disturbances to me while I'm doing it. Guess that it's because I haven't found my own place and time with God?

Talked to Eunice about me being dry in the Mac during fellowship yesterday. She told me that she also faced this situation once this year. But, she told herself that she should not shortchanged God. And also to put the priorities right, whether is it Homework/projects first or... God first...??

It's really something that I've planted inside my heart.

The Church's 17th anniversary and FOP was great!
The CCC band and Don Moen really lifted the whole atmosphere up!

When I was serving Ministry on Fri for FOP, something very irony happen.
There were quite a number of teachers(about 5 to 7?).
But, there were only about 3 kids.
So, there's more than enough teachers.
We were expecting auite a number of kids anyway. haha!

While, on Sat, I was serving for the National Day Celebration Bazar.
Met Yi Jie for Busing.
Knew this very cute, cubby kid on the bus name Brianne. And she's just SOSOSOSOSOS adorable!!!!!! Just like my sis, but when she's younger. haha!

There's just something in kids that's different from us, teenagers/adults, etc.
They can't tell what's right and wrong.
Thus, they would believe in whatever you tell them.
That's the "naive-ty" that they have.

Kids also won't have any motive against anyone.
Not like us, we may even be thinking of how to do something to hurt/harm someone.

okok. Now back to the topic.
When we arrived at the Jurong West building, I was surprised to see so many kids. Yi Jia told me that there's usually more kids attending the Expo Service than the Jurong West Service.

There's Praise and Worship, singing of National Day songs, Bible Story, etc, then followed by the Bazar.
Anyway, it's my first time attending a Jurong West Children Church's Service.

The Bazar was really a mess!!!
Kids were all over the place. Waiting impatiently to get the gifts that they want.

But well, then sent them back after that.
Then went for FOP with Yi Jie.

There's just this problem between the all of us.

To me, I think it's the problem lies in every of us.
Although some may think it's only us, but, I still got this feeling that it's all of us.






Oh God, help us.
It's just another test given by You.

Oh Lord, our God.
Give us an answer,
to carry us even farther than we are now,
to move us and have breakthroughs,
to overcome all the obstacles we are having.

Oh God,
we pray for Your word and the Holy Spirit.

Oh God,
change us,
to be more like Jesus.

♥ 11:12 PM