Why is it that I can get a little pissed off at times?
Or, is it anger?
Or jealousy?

Why is it that people feel stressed?

Why is it that people can get so angry over little things?
It's just a small matter.

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Well, have been rather busy with CO practices and such for the past weeks.
It's gonna be over soon, it's actually a rather good time spent.
Like for bonding, and understanding each other more.

Well, I'm really tired le.
But, I need to hold on.
With so much workload, but so little time to accomplish them, I've got no choice, but to really stay up till late to finish everything that I've to finish.

Well, it's only another 6 more days to SYF, which is even less than a week, with a few more practices to go through, we're already going to go for the competition already!!!

It's so amazing at how fast time passes by.

Hopefully, we can get what we aim for, with the amount of hardwork everyone put in.

And, one good news, I've gotten in for the SCO music camp thingy.
It's really unexpected.
Cos' I don't think I really played well, I was so nervous that the speed was supposed to be slow, I actually played faster and faster gradually.

I was so surprised at how fast I finished everything, and that I actually was out of that room in no time!
Ha ha!

Still, it's God's grace over me.

Well, wonder why I didn't get in last year.

Due to the quality of the cello that I'm using?
-- It's the cheapo one, which cost only about $450, about half the amount of the school's cello.
Ha ha! (Mr Tong's company's one)

Due to the strong competitors?
-- I remember that there was this guy from "I-forgot-which" school, that he can play really, really well!!!! He doesn't need to look at the fingerboard or what, and his ying is like so zhun!!!!

Ha ha!
Well, shouldn't talk about it anymore, it's already the past....

I've got so much more things to talk about, but I forgot what I want to talk about now, all of a sudden....

And, a few more things I observed...
--- 1) Second chances can really prove someone wrong.
--- 2) People will want to stand out among others.
--- 3) Teenagers nowadays are so wanting to fall-in-love.

P.S. Wendy, you would know what I'm talking about! =)

♥ 11:57 PM

The camp was rather alright.
From the camp, I realised lots of things.

1) Camps can solve misunderstandings.
E.g. In the case of Brenda and Cedric, they solved a super duper lame childhood misunderstanding.
The misunderstanding was a very funny one, whereby it's a case of something like a "mistaken identity".
Shouldn't elaborate much here.

2) I can learn more about Chemistry.
I know what's Free Moving Electrons (FME), all thanks to Cedric and Vionna too.
Both of them are the FMEs around the place.
They actually intended to just stay with us through the first station.
But, then, they stayed with us throughout the whole Amazing Race!
It's also thanks to them, who also helped in the bonding of GROUP 7!!

3) It's not easy preparing for a camp.
With CK being the OIC for camp, and some other people planning the camp together, I think though some parts of it may not be well done, at least best efforts are put in.
But, with bad, there'll also be good!

4) It's not easy to create bondings.
With a group under me, I think this is a rather great group, and it's ..................................... GROUP 7, only that a few people refused to co-operate with me and the other leaders!!!!
But well, in general, it's still a great group!!!

5) I know more about problems in my section.
It's thanks to Wendy, Sharir and Dominic.

Wendy : Thanks for telling me so many things that I can and should do.
And also so many things that's happening in our section, as well as spending the time to walk with me, and teaching me how to eat chocolates the correct way! Ha ha!

Sharir: For teaching me the first few lines of playing Qing Tian on the guitar, hope will have follow-up. And also, about talking to the juniors.

Dominic: For teaching me that for all things, must really read through and ask properly first if you're not sure about it, in the case of your Pig Liver's soup. Ha ha!
For the leadership, and also to "think-out-of-the-box", in the case of a member.

Well, though this may not be all the people, I now know how the juniors think towards the seniors as well as how the seniors think towards the juniors.

6) I realised that second chances have to be given.
Do you condemn someone just because of their outer appearances, the way they behaved, and not even understanding that person and knowing that person well.

I now know that that person can be a real great person at times, and not always like who she is in front of us.

"Chances have to be given for them to prove themselves."
I hope I am not wrong.




Well, there are still lots more points I wanna write about, but due to the lack of time for it is already 1.03am, and I shall go to sleep, I shall stop.



Shall write in Purple for it's her favourite colour.

Today is my mum's birthday.
I think it's not a good celebration, due to my bro and sis, I think I tried my best to make it good..

She specially took the time off for this, as well as for a cousin's wedding in Penang, but need a lot of travelling time, so we didn't go.
And she stayed at home the whole day, but only at night, when I brought her out for dinner and I actually PAID for the dinner!!!!!

There's no birthday cake, no nothing.

I actually intended to stay home to help her and spend more time with her, cos' everyone in this family is actually getting further and further apart from each other.
The way we talk to each other is so, so, so cliche.
There's no depthness at all.
****I hope it will not be like that for long.



IT's already 1.10am.
Got to go le.

♥ 11:26 PM

Fought with my bro today.
It's been a long time since I did that.

I don't know why I can't control myself.
I'm just so agitated.

Thinking back, it's just a small matter, yet I blew my top and FOUGHT with him.
I mean fight literally , not just saying it's a fight.

He's rather alright.
But, for me, I've got a blue-black at my cheekbone, but it's not very obvious.
Thank God for that.

Tomorrow's gonna be the camp.
Actually I'm partly excited, and partly not.

I'm only excited when it comes to the food that's gonna appear, cuz I know it's gonna be great!
But unexcited because I will miss lots of CG activities, as well as when it comes to leading people.
I don't like debrief, especially when it's gonna take a long long time.

--> I wanna be with my section, with my close friends!

When it comes to leading people, it can be exciting yet, comes with great responsibility.
Well, I don't know what I'm talking about already.

I'm still left with tons of homework that's undone.
Don't even know if I can finish by end of this week or not.

Well, this week's Phil Pringle's week!
It's gonna be a highly impacted Service, I believe!

Gonna be real busy next week.
With lots of CCA practices coming up.
Maybe not lots, just long!

Ok, got to go and do some other things.
Don't know why I'm blogging today.
Just felt like typing and typing... Ha ha!


Take care everyone! =)

P.S. Elise, thanks for telling me a fact yesterday!
Ha ha! At least now I know what I can do!

♥ 11:40 PM

Know why this entry is titled "First times"?
Well, lots of my first times happened today.

My first time to Singapore General Hospital,
my first time using my ATM card (I know this sounds stupid),
my first time withdrawing money from the ATM machine,
then depositing the remaining back again.

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Once again, super little people serving today.
Not very sure why, but this past few weeks, there are not many people serving.

Aaron was so cute. Ha ha! Just that he's super hyperactive.
Ethan is just so handsome. Like his dad, with the glory of God. He's a rather nice child too.

Well well, was cleaning the toys, when suddenly,

"Pab!", something hit me on the bridge of my nose.
Its impact was so great.
I was like.... blur?? I only reacted a few seconds after the hit.

I just cried.
Actually it was real painful at first, but slowly, the pain went off.
And I stopped.

The person who threw that toy car was..... CK!
And the person who missed it was............... MING WEI!

Then they talked about internal bleeding and blood clotting.
I was really worried that something may happen... Ha ha! That's just like thinking too much...?
Ha ha!

After ministry, went to the foodcourt to look for Jia Hui and Si Yun.
Then were sharing a mango ice kachang or something?

Then actually wanted to go Si Qi's house straight away, but then she went to visit her grandpa.
So, went to Jia Hui's house.

Then, went there and had a "extreme makeover" session. Ha ha!
It was really fun!

Went to Si Qi's ah ma's house after that.
We ate lots of food!
There's pizza, oreo cheesecake (made by Si Qi), Oreo biscuits, prawn crackers, blah blah blah!!!!
TO PREPARE FOR TOMORROW'S 24 HOURS FAST!!!

After eating, we slept.
Then went to visit Si Qi's grandpa at SGH.

We prayed for him in twos.
It was a miracle for what he went through.

He reminded me of my grandpa when once, my grandpa was like that too.

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Right now, lots of people are facing attacks.
It's already towards the end of A & B.
We can fulfil it!

Let's continue staying strong, overcoming attacks, having breakthroughs.

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Will have to go school tmr.

If not, I will try to finish as much homework as soon as possible.
If not, I may not have enough time already. =(

Time is really very precious now.

* Spend it wisely! *

Don't waste it anymore!

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I'm not joining Emerge Dance already.

I actually wanted to join Vocals, but the Prelim rounds are on Wed or Thir.

With so little time to practise for both Vocals and Dance, I don't think I can get it all done.
So, for dance - I don't wanna pull the whole group down.
for vocals - No mike to practise with, and don't know the song that we want to sing.

Ha ha!

Well, I joined...

- Captain's Ball,
- Badminton,
- Word Power

That shall be all for now!

♥ 11:36 PM

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