I just feel so sad today.
Things were going right yet wrong.
Haha. Well, think only a few people will understand this.
Well, firstly, my watch's spoilt!
And, it's like one of my favourite watch?
And the rest of my watches, have either slower timing (batteries problem), or broken strap.
So, it's like so miserable.
And, secondly, because of some things that happened during physics lessons, and also during ace lessons, though it's just a small matter, I just felt so miserable about it.
*Sometimes you guys may think it's funny, but I don't.
This matters a lot to me.
It's MANNERISM.
It's RESPECT.
You may think it's nothing.
But, it speaks a lot.
I almost wanted to break-down during CO prac.
But still, when I saw SY, and WL, I just can't seem to break-down.
And so, I held it back, and wanted to cry when I came home.
After the rehearsal, we could go back home.
But yet, I continued staying, while others were packing already.
I played a part of this song, "
露华浓", that made me even sadder.
It just brings back some old memories. Haha.
But, I just WANTED to play it.
Thanks Wan Lin. You'd know what I'd meant.
But, thank God that He's placed people who are really concerned about me, like WL, SY, ZH, CQ, JQ, Mich, Sally, Keiko, etc.
They're great people who showers love to others.
Well, though other things may not have made my day, they did!
Today is also the first day that I felt so miserable, so down, so much of wanting to break-down.
And, WL was like telling me that it's ok to feel like that,
ONCE IN A WHILE, as we're still humans anyway
. We have to go through emotions anyway.
It's sometimes really good not to hide your feelings away.
It can just bring you more troubles, and more depression.
Today, I also realised that crying things out can be really relaxing too.
I used to think that those who cry are those who are really emo and such.
But, now, I've changed that mindset.
It opens up my mind, to a whole NEW mindset.And, one more thing, I know I will
ENDURE.
"It's not how I started this race, but it's how I END it."
I know I will continue moving on no matter how tough it may seem. (:
Thanks for everything. You've really been a blessing to me. (:
Loves.
Labels: endurance, feelings, Love, people, sad