Thanks Yan Zhi, for your wonderful gift yesterday!
It's super practical, and I love practical gifts! :D



Today, I'm gonna talk about this wonderful pal, friend, buddy, whatever I can call her, Miss Kok Tsz Wing!

THANK YOU, AND I LOVE YOU! :D :D

Love,

Your Dearest SADIST.

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

P.S. I really went to dig the pics we've taken, but couldn't find much!

And, where's those we took at the community centre sooooo sooooooo long ago one?!

I WANT THEM!!! Haha.

INDEED...

- "Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, impossible to forget."

- "A best friend is like a clover leaf, hard to find and lucky to have."

- "Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us."

- "Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there."

Labels: blessed, friends, Love, people, Thanks

♥ 10:51 PM

So many things to think about.
It's a period when I'll have to make a lot of choices.

When playing with ah girl(someone's sis), I found that I still have the passion and love for kids.
I'm making a choice between going back into Children Church, or going on to another ministry.

Since 'O' level results are gonna be released soon, still must make a choice of where I am going to continue my studies.

I'm also thinking if I should join City Care, to start my voluntary work journey.

Still so many things to make a choice about.


God, I lift all these into Your hands once again.
I know You know the deepest desires and thoughts of my heart and mind.
I know You've prepared a way for me to walk and go through.
I know You'll bring me through it, since You've brought me to it.

I know that season is coming soon.
You're preparing me for it.

I'm giving all I am in exchange of all of You.
I'm less of me, so that there can be more of You.

I surrender all, and I will follow You.
I surrender all, and bring my life to You.
I surrender all, and live my life for You.
I surrender all, I surrender all,
To You Jesus.


Unafraid what's ahead, You are always there before
My whole world, Your design
You are always there, Just right behind.

My life, is Your song
To You my heart belongs.
Let all earthly crowns, fade in the shadow of the cross

My life, is Your song
I'll sing for You alone
Nothing in this world, can take me away from You
Our love goes on and on.



Thank God for a blessing!
I was so shocked, when I opened the letterbox yesterday, saw a letter attn to me, and it's from the Ministry of Education!
I'm awarded the EAGLES award!
I've never dreamt of being awarded with this award!
Well, really thank God for it!

Labels: God, Help, random, Thanks, thoughts

♥ 3:40 PM

Had a great fellowship lunch before PM and Service with Connect Group.
And, thanks to present-buying, we were able to take a pic with Santa Claus!
Haha.
Well, shan't elaborate more.

Hopefully, pics can be posted asap!
Haha.


P.S. Li Yun : Round and White
Chloe : Tall and Tan
Bedok Bus Interchange = (in chinese) supposedly --> WU LUO BA SHI ZHUAN HUAN ZHAN
Someone thought it was --> WU LUO BA SHI LI MIAN HUAN = bedok bus inside change (which was a super direct translation)



God, I know You've made this space in their hearts.
God, I'm waiting for that time, that moment, that opportunity, to open my mouth to ask them.
God, You always put things in the right timing, right season.

I lift it up to You.
I know You will make it happen with my prayers and everyone else's prayers.
Nothing is impossible for You.
You hold my world in Your hands.


Unafraid what's ahead, You are always there before
My whole world, Your design
You are always there, just right behind

I give my thanks to You. Just You only.

Labels: Fellowship, God, great, Thanks

♥ 11:59 PM

To Miss Tan Jia Hui:

Thanks for the heart-to-heart chat yesterday night, at the park near my house.
Though it was short, it was great.
Though the venue wasn't that good, it was still great.
Haha.


This talk made me realised, that it's all the small things, that caused such a huge misunderstanding.
It's all the unsolved little, small problems, that led to such a problem.
Why did we all choose to avoid it, and judge with a man's mindset?

Shouldn't we look with the eyes of God, and not judge just by what we see?


Yes, we all connect spirit to spirit.
The more we connect, the closer we'll become.


May we build on this relationship.
I'll treasure it from now.

Thanks for sharing with me.
LOVES.

Labels: people, random, Thanks, thoughts, treasure

♥ 10:45 AM

Had a great fellowship dinner with a few CG members at Ehub! - jia hui, wui an, max, and a friend Qi Hui.
Thank you Jia Hui for this expensive treat!

This meal was really expensive, even though it was nice!
5 person eating and it costs $91!

Thanks for this great fellowship, and the fun, the laughter, the jokes, the lameness, the coldness, the camwhoring, the losing face......
Haha.


Will post the pics up soon, if possible!

Labels: enjoyable, fun, joy, lame, people, random, Thanks

♥ 4:30 PM

Till now, we've only spoken a word to each other.
I said, "..... ."
She replied, "Hmmm."

Think this is the 'coldest war' we've had so far.

Really Lord, Your perfect love covers all my fears.

I know that the more trials and tribulations I go through,
the more He's gonna mould my character,
the more I will do for the kingdom of God.


Let my life be Your clay, mould me in Your ways.


My God reigns, His love will never fail me
My God reigns, He's ruling over all
In all my life, in every situation, I know
My God is greater
My God is over all


No words can express the deepest of my heart now.
I shall walk out of the valley of dry bones!

Labels: God, Love, Thanks

♥ 9:50 AM

What a thing to spoil my day.

I know, no matter what I do, she'll just look at me with the same eyes.
And even if my siblings do the same thing, she'll understand it, and can even accept it.
And when I do the same, she'd shout and scold me.


This is what hurts me the most.
I really can't understand it.

The God I know, righteous and holy
The God I know, faithful and true
The God I know, my tower of refuge
Hearts are healed, Christ revealed

The God I know, light of the city
The God I know, strengthens the weak
The God I know, .........
As He is, so are we

I know You're with me.
Thank You.

Labels: hurts, sad, Thanks

♥ 1:10 PM

When two perfect strangers get together to become friends, good friends, close friends, best friends, it's really God's plan.

How did two people in who doesn't know each other at all, get to know each other, among the many people in the world?

Really, treasure the friends that you meet and have.
It's never too late,
- to learn to appreciate them,
- to learn to show care and concern to them,
- to learn to be thankful in every moment you've been through,
- to learn to lean on one other and support one another in times of need.


Thank you, all my friends, and people who I've met, be it whatever we've been through.

Labels: friends, people, Thanks, treasure

♥ 4:12 PM

Yesterday was the first day of the wake.
Woke up rather early too.

Had a great breakfast with family at a nearby coffeeshop, before we cabbed down in 2 cabs to the place.

Mum spoke a lot of things to me.
She was like saying how peaceful ah gong's death was.
He passed away only after he'd seen ah ma, just like sleeping.

It really touched me.
Their LOVE STORY.

In short : AH GONG passed away really peacefully.
And this is something that we should be relieved of.


There were lots of things to do there.
Learnt quite some things too.
Ah boy kor kor thought me and bee hoon how to fold '元宝(don't know correct not, haha)' using the paper.
Bee hoon aka SIAO ZHA BOR number 2 = Hui Yun
Bee hoon was really funny.
I'd thought I was slow, but she was even slower.

But, for folding the even easier shapes, I took sooo long to understand it.
She at first thought it was tough, in the end, she asked around, and SIAO ZHA BOR number 1 was like laughing so soooo loudly about it!!
SIAO ZHA BOR number 1 = Ah Bee

And of course, I was known as SIAO ZHA BOR number 3 = me.
Haha.

Saw cousins that I haven't seen for a long time, and had small little chats with them.

Came back at around 8+ with my sis, and reached home around 9.15pm?
Wanted to finish all my homework due the next day.
In the end, just by sitting down and doing it, I was like dozing off.

My dad was like chasing me to go to bed.
I was just trying my best to stay awake, but to no avail.
In the end, without finishing my work, I went to bed.

Today, the second day, didn't go to school, for I couldn't get up, and my whole body is aching like don't know what.
And so did my sis!
Only my bro went to school, for he came back super early with dad yesterday.

I saw my grandfather's 'obituary/death notice' at the chinese newspaper - 联合早报 .
At least he 子孙满堂.

FACT OF THE DAY: His 2 daughters - my 阿姨 and my mum, actually both married men of the same surname = 杨!

It was really nice seeing all his 外孙子女 all with the surname 杨.
I know it's kinda random. Haha.

Did some stuffs for mum, and went for lunch outside.
Did some marketing.

Came back home since, and had been at this post.
Li Wei came and visited me.
Thanks a lot for that chat!



Well, I just want to thank all who've been with me, encouraging me, consoling me, etc!
I am fine!
THANK YOU!

Thank you ,
my CG,
my close friend (you'd a post at your blog) - YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,
my classmates, and gang,
TSZ WING,
Belinda,
my family,
Nicole,
and to everyone else!!!!!

Love you all.


I will move on with life.


Surrending it all to You.......
I surrender all and I will follow You.
I surrender all and bring my life to You.
I surrender all and live my life for You.
I surrender all, I surrender all,
to You Jesus.

Labels: ah gong, cousin ah bee, cousin HY, family, fine, people, random, Thanks, thoughts

♥ 4:45 PM

I'm still clinging on, hanging on.

Things may not be going smoothly for me.
But, I know that, the harder my path, the more I'm gonna do as I grow stronger spiritually.

This is what I always remind myself:
" The harder the path that I walk, the more I'm going to do for God. "

I am supposed to learn from my problems, and emerge stronger and more mature than before.
Problems are to make you stronger.


Don't see problems as obstacles.
See them as a test.
It could be a test of faith, a test of strength, a test of determination/preserverance, or perhaps, a test of anything.

A test is something you'll have to go pass, to go on to the next level.


THINK : ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE


There is always something good in every bad situation.
Learn to praise God.

Eg.
When you fall down, you might have hurt yourself, and you've injured yourself.
Even though you've injured yourself, you may have learnt how to be more careful in walking through that path, and so, you've gained an EXPERIENCE.



Experience can't be learned by teaching.
It's something that you'll have to go through, to know.
That's then an experience.

P.S. I'm not talking about the same thing as the previous post.
They are different issues.





I thank God for those who are with me, or those who know what I'm going through.
I know that I may not have that type of openess to you guys, but I'm trying to be more open.

Thank you for wanting to hear.
Thank God for opening your ears to hear.
Thank you for everything.

We will walk a long walk. (:
I shall see you in ~~~. (;



NEOS CAMP.
I will be there! (:
Finally.
Breakthrough.
Thank God.




Just celebrated Dad's birthday.
Ate with gang on Thur.
Pics posted soon!

Labels: experience, God, life, revelation, Strength, Thanks

♥ 12:57 AM

I went out with my dearest cousin, Cousin HY. Haha.


And, this is she:
*this is taken in the beginning of March.
















She brought me to Orchard.
We went to Ding Tai Feng, and had a sumptuous meal!
Super nice!
We couldn't finish ALL the food man!
Shouldn't have ordered so much anyway. Haha.



After that, went around to shop at Far East Plaza.
Went to a few 'camera' shops and looked around.
Think they all very ex. Haha.


Then we went to Bugis.
We went to Sim Lim Square, and shopped around.
Came to this shop, super bad customer service.



Went to another, was served by an old uncle.
When he promotes, he only looks and my cousin (thinks he thinks that my cousin is the one buying), and when he talks, saliva splatted out also.
[shouldn't continue again, haha]

Too bad, I returned my auntie's camera to her on Sat.
If not, I still can take so many pictures on Sat and Sun.

Well, bought from this uncle, who splatted lots of saliva, and we bargained till $225.
Since my 6th aunt gave me $200 to buy the camera, my cousin paid for the extra $25.

Then shopped at Bugis Street.
She bought a Shirt/Shirt-dress for me.



In conclusion, Cousin HY spent big bucks on me, to bless me for my birthday.
*She's a Cousin, who I don't see often, but only like once or twice a year.
But, we're the ones, who, when we don't see each other, we still have that 'bonding' between us.
We still can talk till dawn breaks, despite not seeing each other for like almost a year, when we next meet-up?
I wanna meet her more times a year!


And, my mum's sis also blessed me with an 'angbao'.
But, the problem is we all don't know how she knew it's my birthday!









Next, my dream

I had a super weird dream on Sun.
I should say, sleep on Sat, wake on Sun - that sleeping time.
Haha - not to make you all confused.

So many different people appeared in this dream:
- My cousins --> Even those that I don't talk to, not close with (from my mum's side)
- Church friends --> We know each other, but never ever talked to each other before
- Classmates/Schoolmates --> Those not very, very close one.

The scariest part was those church friends were celebrating my birthday for me.
All of a sudden, they carried me up, and wanted to have a birthday 'throw', down a ulu pond.
Then this guy(whom I've never talked to before, but we knew each other), suddenly grabbed my hand, and said he liked me!


Oh my gosh~
I was so shocked.

Well, another scary part is, I teleported from Far East Plaza, to Bugis, to Serangoon, to Chinatown, and back to Bugis!
And, I WALKED back and forth!
Haha.

I know it's kinda lame, but, it just seems so real to me.








Will upload the pics, when I received them from my cousin. (:
A lot of funny ones! Haha.




Thank You Lord, for everything in my life.
All that I am.

Labels: Birthday, blessed, cousin HY, Thanks

♥ 11:28 PM

如果我没错, 这是我第一次以华文来 blog。
也许你们会感到很震惊，但是这或许会是我在华文用文上的另外一个突破？

我现在或许在一个‘感到非常emo’ 的心态里。
在这时候，我是边type着，边流着泪的。


这是因为。。。。。。。

我只不过是少和她说了这一句话，少做了一个动作，她就这样。
我实在是太失望了。
但，或许她对我的期望比我对她的希望来得更高。。。

不知为何，妈突然以一种她痛恨我的方式来“对我说话”。
相信不必我多说，你们都应该知道我的意思了吧。。。

她虽然没有用那种语气把她想表达的东西说出来，但是，她的意思却是大家都听得出来的。

她竟然能够说我和她不亲，反而和我的朋友较亲。
那请问，她到底把她在工作后所剩余的时间，拿来干么？
她为何不用那些时间来陪伴我们，和我们有一些能够心谈心的时间吗？

这就是说，一切都是我的错？

为何你不能像爸这样，尽量早点回来，陪伴我们？
这也难怪孩子们都偏向父亲。


你所说的这一句话简直就像你是用了一把刀，直接在我心里挖了一个大洞，使我伤上加伤，使我受了重伤。

我应该把这段‘记忆’给忘了。。。




在这里，我也要感谢一直以来陪伴着我走了这么多路的人。
我相信你们自己知道你们是谁吧。

真的谢谢你们。



感谢主您一直以来所给我的勉励。
我爱你！

Labels: God, Love, people, sad, Thanks

♥ 2:25 AM

I was worried.
About? --> About spoiling my aunt's camera.

Guess it was due to my careless mistake, that I spoilt the XD-card.
And so, couldn't take pics.

But, thank God!
I went to this particular shop, and asked this uncle, who asked me to try to format it.
And, I tried!!!!!!!!!

It was a time of heart-attack, just to see if the camera will turn out to be "error-free".
Li Yun was with me, to witness everything. Haha.
She'll understand.



Went to 201 to have lunch with Eun and Li Yun.
Finally ate my favourite noodles from there, after not being there for such a long time!!
It still tastes almost like it's original one, but there's still something different....

And we ate dessert.... Haha!
GREAT!
We felt like we're in ITALY.
All thanks to Eunice!
Plus, there's RAIN, MIRROR, COLD WIND...... Haha!




It was my first day jamming too.
Well, it was funny at first, how we hog the mike, the keyboard, playing with the unplugged guitar, drums, etc.

Haha.


Going to Kukup tomorrow.
Hope it'll be a good experience, as it's my second out of the country only!!!
Hope there'll be no rain tomorrow, and the weather's gonna be good!!!




Thank You for everything.
For being there, whenever I need You.
You're always here for me, even if I'm not thinking of You, or not needing You.

Thank You for Your love.
It matters to me.

I wanna stay in Your presence,
and wanna be able to run to Your bosom,
to be protected by You,
to be loved by You,
to be taken care of by You.

Thank You God for everything.
I love You! (:

Labels: camera, Fellowship, food, God, jamming, Love, Thanks, You

♥ 8:45 PM

I'm feeling hungry now.
I know that's super random.
But, think I just feel like eating.
Haha.

I'm supposed to come online, and do a project.
But, once again, I didn't control myself, and went on to doing other things, and not that project.

Just 3 days of school, and I'm already aching from all the carrying of the heavy books.
And, it's really ache leh!

And well, after school yesterday, I actually studied!!
That's a surprise, right?!!?!? (especially to LY)

And, now, I think the library is a wonderful place for me.

Know why?
- 'Cos we can't talk in the library. So, we've got no choice, but just to do things mostly individually, by ourselves.
And, because I'm someone who may talk non-stop, better don't bring me to places like canteens, homes, or just places where you can talk, without controlling yourself.
And, canteen is a very-easy-to-get-distracted place, because there's food!

Haha.

And, I'm really thankful for people around me, who's been encouraging me to study, and they never ever gave me up, when I don't/ never/ too lazy to/ have lack of discipline to study.

Thanks Nad, Li Yun, Kenneth, Zahr. (I may miss some of you out too. Sorry for that.)
You guys have been a great help to me!


And well, it all begins with yourself.
Whether you wanna help yourself or not.
It's a choice you'll have to make yourself.

Yes, people can be giving you support, help,
but, it's still about............................. YOU!

If not, no matter how hard people are trying to help you, and you don't wanna help yourself,
they will just feel like they are wasting their efforts, and they could have already been very tired in this "long run" WITH you and FOR you already.



So, no matter how badly you have done, or how bad you have been, you need the strength to get back.


Quote of the day: " Strength is the ability to bounce back after failing."

So, people, GET UP, and continue this walk.
You've still got the time.

Labels: Help, Strength, Study, Thanks, You

♥ 3:38 AM